Smile, Bitch.

i can never be happy. it's a strange virus. i'm always unhappy, and then i think of a goal that would make me happy. i work and work to achieve that goal, and once i achieve it-- i'm happy for two seconds. then i'm unhappy again. i start thinking, "gee, this isn't as great as i thought it would be," and then i start working towards another goal of happiness. it's a torturous cycle of unhappiness and i don't know how to stop. even moreso, i don't know how to be happy. maybe that's why i take drugs.